That’s what’s up.
That’s what’s up.
— Lil Wayne
Hey stupid, I miss you.
a lot a lot
— Love the Way You Lie, Eminem ft. Rihanna. (via quote-book)

What to do, what to do.
People often say “actions speak louder than words.” I agree to a certain extent.
Perception of events and occurrences get morphed in the mind making people see a distorted view of events. Basically, people see what they want to see. And they believe themselves to be undoubtedly correct no matter what. It’s the other person who isn’t seeing clearly, when in all actuality it’s both people.
I give people who matter the benefit of the doubt. “I know he wouldn’t intentionally say something this fucked up, so maybe I’m interpreting it wrong.” That’s how I see things a lot. However, I often feel as though I’m alone in said consideration.
I often feel as though I don’t get the same level of consideration as I give to others. And what I mean by that is simply this: while actions may speak louder than words, if you know me like you say you do then why would you ever think I would say something so insensitive, cruel, heartless… etc. ? I understand my absent-mindedness often makes it seem as though I don’t care, which in the majority of situations I don’t, but those who know where they stand with me should know that I would never say something with malicious intent.
So maybe the next time one perceives my actions to be less than kind, one should reflect on the version of me they know and see if the two situations match.
blah blah blah what the hell am I talking about?
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I can actually say I understand what my philosophy professor was talking about today when he was explaining Anselm’s argument for the existence of God. Not in the sense that it convinced me to believe any differently than how I currently do, but how the concept of existence in the understanding and reality makes sense.
In Anselm’s argument he states,
If something exists only in the understanding and could have existed in reality, then it could have been greater than it is.
I’ll explain the meaning by example. In truth, I have a wonderfully amazing boyfriend. However, lately he’s been irritable and what not. His wonderful nature has not disappeared, it just no longer exists in reality, only in the understanding (the mind). The only concept that could make his wonderful nature even more amazing would be if it existed in reality (for the record, it does exist in reality, he’s just being cranky which I’m not mad about. Not even slightly. I’m using this example for the sake of understanding the concept. Nothing more or less).
Oh my word, for the first time in a LOOOOOOONNNNGGGGG while, I’m actually learning something in school. Hell muthafucking yeah.